Dear One
To my eldest, Today, you turn 5 years old. These are strange feelings I have…I feel like my love for you is so fierce that if I start writing it about here, it will hurt me somehow, rip me open again...
View ArticleThat Voice
I’m thinking about that voice again this morning…you know the one. The one that says you’re doing it all wrong, or that you’re not doing enough. You know, that one. My whole life this voice has...
View ArticleNear Misses
For the most part, since becoming a mother, God has protected my brain from wandering, unproductive, scary thoughts. Like the ones where bad things happen to the people I love or I “go there”- to the...
View ArticleI am not afraid
I am not afraid of you. You hurl some pretty big things my way, but God and I? Are stronger than you. And we will win. He will win for me. Every time. You think you are more clever, more desirable,...
View ArticleIt’s All About The Light
When I wake up, the baby is fussing and it’s dark. I nurse him, lay him down, lay myself down and sleep for a while. I wake again, the baby fussing and it’s still dark. I nurse him, fall asleep in the...
View ArticleArms
I’m up early today, or did I ever really sleep? I think maybe I’ve just been up since yesterday. Eyes hurting from exhaustion. But I must get up. I must push. I climb back in bed from nursing the baby...
View ArticleNew Year Goal Setting
My husband and I have been goal-setters now for 10 years. It started before we were married when I was living in London in 2002. He and I were typing on AIM late one night for him, early one morning...
View ArticleAnything Good In Me
The bottom line is: Anything good in me is Jesus. For my sake, I need to repeat it: Anything good in me is Jesus. A friend recently gave me some lovely compliments. A few years ago, I would have hung...
View ArticleDear Mom with a newborn and a 2 year old…
Dear Mom with a Newborn and a 2-year-old, I saw you at the park today with your newborn strapped to you while you chased after your toddler. Your hair was askew and your outfit was just above jammies....
View ArticleDear Mom with a baby who doesn’t sleep through the night…
Dear Mom with a baby who doesn’t sleep through the night, You’re tired. So so tired. In your bones tired. Sometimes it feels like it’s dark all the time because you wake up in the night so many times,...
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